Stuck in “I’ll Be Happy When…”

I’m not proud to say it, but some days I wish I didn’t have a 2yo at home.  Not saying I wish he didn’t exist, just saying I wish we could fast-forward a few years and only experience the tantrums, the battles of will, the not eating/not sleeping/not stopping as hazy memories instead of everyday occurrences.

I’m enough of a veteran to know these days pass, but  I’m also weary enough that I’m marking the time. 

But not marking the moments.  I know I’m missing things.  I’m struggling; I’m stuck.

My newest endeavor – the newest among many – is to work on my perspective, and not be so overwhelmed with the NOW that I keep my eye only on the WHEN.  Because NOW is when I want to be happy.

  • Lissa

    I understand. Ironically, I find that I am less patient with Kiera immedately after a much-needed break from her. I get used to doing things focusing on me instead of on her, and I kind of resent it when I have to make her my priority again. What can I say? I’m selfish. I admit it. But I’m working on it. 😛

  • Lauralee Hensley

    I liked my step-son’s behaviors between 8-12 years old. He was trying between 12-14, impossible between 14-17. Finally got his behaviors and attitude more under control when he was 19. It’s hard when they have periods where you just wish they were older.
    My husband said he was a pretty good boy from birth to about 5. Then he was stubborn and was very strong willed until he was eight. So even my husbands could see and feel periods of time where you just wish each day didn’t have to be like that.
    I guess when you have kids like that you really appreciate those periods of time when you have them, that they are nice to be around and everyday doesn’t seem so much like a rollcoaster ride that you just want to get off of already.